I swear, I’m not being narcissistic, and I wasn’t always this way.
It has been a long process getting here. I truly love myself, though. I am smart, a good mother, a good partner to my husband and I am healthy, what more can I ask for? A few years ago, it was a different story. I had just given birth to my son, was in the midst of post-partum depression and was trying to get rid of those last 10 (ok, maybe 30) pounds. I had trouble bonding with my son, we did not have a good birth experience, and I couldn’t get him to breastfeed and in general was not in a good place. My husband and I have our own business, he is a heating contractor and I felt like I had given all of myself to my child and my husband and I had nothing left for me.
Fast forward three years, and I now enjoy being me.
How did I get here? I found my passion, helping people, especially women and a passion for health. I am studying to become a Holistic Nutritionist and I am becoming a personal trainer. In short, I made time for ME. Along the way, I had another baby, with whom I had a wonderful experience bonding with. I also discovered that you really do need to put yourself first in order to be the best mommy and partner you can be, that really isn’t just lip service from Dr. Phil.
I also made a conscious effort to stop comparing myself to other people. One of my closest friends carries babies really well, she didn’t gain much weight and she bounced back quickly. I compared myself to her constantly, but I have realized that she just got the luck of the draw in that department and I have so many other things to be thankful for. I always compared myself to my sister in law too. Becky is beautiful and naturally thin with these really long biceps, which are a little more coveted right now in the fitness industry, but there are so many things on my body that I love and I focus on those and not what I can’t change. I still struggle with comparing myself, but I am leaps and bounds above where I was.
The most important thing that happened to me was discovering “Eating Clean”. I have cut out EVERYTHING artificial and fake and look for healthy fats and ways of cooking. I have cut out diet soda, sugars both fake and real and I eat as many green things as I can get my hands on. If it is fake in any way, I don’t eat it, it really is that simple. This has transformed my mind and body. I don’t struggle with my weight, my hormones are fairly balanced and my body works hard for me. My body does of it what I ask, whether it is a hard yoga class or difficult strength training session. I fuel my body, not my soul, my family takes care of it and my work as a nutritionist and personal trainer takes care of my mind.
I love me, through and through and in turn, I can give the best of me to the people around me.
Have a healthy, fresh day!